Saturday, April 30, 2005
@ 11:29 PM
hehe..act cute eh?? but this was how i felt after the history ppr yesterday!! my second essay had a few loopholes..took me quite some time to get over it... but yeah. very happy that i am only left with one last ppr! =) p.s, gambarimasu!! oh, more photos below! those posted by jeanie!! hahha..
@ 11:05 PM
my face is big. haha..taken last year. when i had my long hair.. nice picture yeah?
@ 11:04 PM
Oh dear....what's that!?!?!
@ 11:03 PM
let us scare you Off with our hideous faces!!!!!!! hahaha..
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
@ 3:11 PM
oh i forgot to say happy birthday to andrew...so sorry.. andrew i say it now!! HAPPY belated birthday!! so old le hor? =P oh p.s i wanna go escape!!!
ok let's see.. violet's in a good mood today. except that just now i guess i nearly got heat stroke. the sun was so strong i felt really giddy while walking back home. had my j-lang ppr this morning!!!!!!!! =) the best ppr so far... i hope to get b+ and above!! aiming for A- ..
had my chinese fiction ppr on monday. i did not revise a lot. there was nothing for me to revise anyway. all the dozing-offs in lectures and so little notes jotted down.. but i think it shouldn't be too hard for me to get C+. hahah!! so no backbone right?! but C+ or B- would be very good already!!
then it was the killer ppr...yesterday... social work. it killed me and many others like naresh. haha.. i used 10 min to do my second essay. yeah it would be really fortunate if i can get 5 marks for that one. i got an *a* for my term paper. mrs mehta said i've got the potential to be a social worker somemore.. and i think most likely she will take that back when and if she marks my ppr.. -S let's just hope i can get a c+. anything above that i have to be very thankful... erm, but i wanna be very thankful leh~
i wanna buy losta stuffs!! clothings!! both internal and external. hahaha...does it sound better this way? =P i wanna buy new shoes...adidas or converse.. comfy tee shirts... sling bag... hee... takusan mono ga hoshii desu!!! takusan tokoro e ikitai desu!! i wanna go to the zoo, escape, night safari!! anyone?? i am finding a job of course..earn more to save and to spend!! =P
i have already planned my schedule.. running or swimming twice and above weekly... i wanna get some tan. prefer running. wear sleeveless to run and i will still be able to get my tan. =) i tend to be lazy when it comes to swimming.. my jogging route will be the one around the new nhss campus and the whole west coast court. damn big round. at least 1.3 km! hehe.. jianzhong says working out helps in improving skin condition. yeah..i want better skin complexion and my 52 kilos pleaseeee.... ok cyas ppl! shall get started with my revision~* ryan and josh just stepped out of their macro econs exam hall. hope they did well!! =) hahaha i think i kena josh's *that face* this afternoon. but both him and ryan are very nice guys..!
Sunday, April 24, 2005
@ 4:24 PM
| Your Brain is 80.00% Female, 20.00% Male |
Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you! |
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
@ 10:29 PM
supposed to be studying... did some work yesterday in school with jeanie and andrew. oh skip that brunching time or lunching time. whatever u call that.. haha.. and i said i wanna finish my ch2223 by today. ooops. guess i did not do much today! i don't know why... something must be wrong with me. no sense of panic. stress. whatever. this mentality of mine. it will sooner or later cause me some harm. erm not this time round pleaseee........
yuki is a nice and cute dog to play with!! haha.. and maddie's neighbour too!! the two cute boys and their 6 month old baby brother!! so cute! pS said something about wanting to have a baby. guess that's why i had this strange dream this morning!!
i dreamt of myself being an unwed mother!! i know i have been talking about wei4 hun1 mama in social work topic... but the dream was so....real i would say. i really did not sleep well last night. i woke up once a while, told myself it's just a dream. and it will carry on once i get back to slp! for say 4 times. i told myself right now there's no one in my heart before my sleep. and here it came. such a dream. DUH!!!! and the guy is him again! oh man...what's happening.. haha.. all my weird dreams about marriage and this kinda *choi* stuff, they all consist of him as the main lead.... kowai ne!!! freaking me out~ haha pS sorta consoled me... and guess what. my dear p.S appeared in this dream too! haha..
if anyone's interested...you can carry on. i just feel like telling the whole weird dream.
i was running or rather playing with this guy. i suddenly felt out of breath and fell to the ground. he sent me to the hospital.. erm. he should be my boyfriend... right? haha.. and of course i fainted. somehow later i got back to the school lecture theatre. p.S was be beside me...saying "congrats violet! you are 3 months pregnant!" (oh ok ppl, there was no prior scenes or any single thing that indicated why i got pregnant ok.) my reaction was one word. *stunned* and here comes the guy. somehow he annoyed a girl in front. then i asked him to sit beside me. i felt that we needed to talk about the matter. and somehow he started to talk less... and on our way home we really did not talk much... the atmosphere was scary.. i was so scared he won't want the baby and there he was. not talking.. we started talking when i saw his 3 ear holes? (hahahah...damn dumb i know) we started talking about piercings.. pS came to console when i nearly went for abortion.she kept telling me to keep the baby but i kept telling her i can't. i am only 20 and i am still an ungrad...how to walk about in school with my stomach so big!! oh at that time, i felt a bit bloated in the stomach already...i saw the abortion clinic and then the dream faded with another sort of weird stuff. i can't really rem.
terrible dream. unwed mother... it's really frightening... and even more frightening when your guy gives you the cold shoulder.... brghhhh...
rights, enough talk about my dream. i'd better get going and see what i can do for the rest of the night. at least get one more chapter done. =P oh and damn it. i got c+ for my ch2223 paper.. haha..ok la. i really can't do this module. it's goin to pull my CAP down for sure. A- for ch2141 paper though! the last part was the failure... haiz.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
@ 11:23 PM
had a nice talk...j-drama...anime and comics... with jiehan and weihan san in the cafe... ryan saw me and thought i was studying...nah..i am not such a good girl.... =P went ot chinese lecture with jeanie.. haha! very funny!! we were too lame~* and goodness me. i came up with "zhubajie chu ji xue yuan" ~ *pigsy jc*. ok shan't elaborate here.. hOhoho...
had my 4 hours break. it was quite ok.. had the discussion for social work study group and went to jeanie's chinese lecture...we ended up laughing giggling in the middle again. as usual. haa.. read the readings in there. but not much went into my head. the tutorial...which was my 2nd lesson of the long day..... was taught by this wonderful teacher mr. xu!! he taught me and jeanie for the last ch1101E tutorial last sem too! i remember we even went up to him and said he's a very good tutor...haha..the way he teaches, so direct and easier to understand... this is the kind of tutor we need man... jean says he's always there for the last tutorial to motivate us at least a bit.. haha.. maybe~* oh i must say this! taniguchi sensei gave me, chuanzhi, christine and mingli each a sweet after yesterday's final ta10 class!! it's a souvenir from her friend...the sweets are in sushi and maki patterns! so nice of her...and she replied most likely they are teaching one level up...meaning i get the same batch of teachers!! yippie!! best is get all my 3 teachers back.. =)
i had a good laugh at ryan's mentioning of *thunderous thighs* just now!! he can be quite mean huh. at least joshua better. he just mentioned "plump" lo.. muahaha.. =P oh i met yixian today!!! very happie... we have not seen each other for ages...and today, we did not plan anything and we met at the bus stop!! haha... glad..
did not sleep well last night...woke up at 5.20am even. stressed because of the oral...everyone too. i am gonna sleep early tonight. it's coming 12 already lor. hah. so much talk about sleeping early. tmr i will start preparing social work study grp stuff. will visit grandma and buy her cakes~* =)
minna-san. oyasumi!~*
Monday, April 11, 2005
@ 2:54 PM
my first ever takuya drama...that got me so addicted.... watch out for this show yah?? it's coming on scv ch 56!! *Long vacation* is a classic!
@ 2:53 PM
he was only 24 then!! not much difference from now actually... sena hidetoshi~*
@ 2:52 PM
one lied she's a model...one lied he's a pianist.. they weren't exactly wrong to say that!!
@ 2:51 PM
joe and jess....*bend it like beckam*
@ 2:51 PM
so good looking...erm, at least to me. haha.. right ps? =P
@ 2:50 PM
woooooH~ prince charming..just that it's a black horse..
@ 1:58 PM
what benghong say about jj is ahahaha... =X
oh ok i just watched *bend it like beckam* on ch 56 too..still a nice show to watch! had great fun laughing...and i think the coach is gorgeous......haha...joe!! let's see..the actor is jonathan rhys meyers~* so romantic to fall in love with someone from another race or country isn't it?
@ 1:26 AM
yeah yeah...me with my short hair...i feel happy..! (:
Sunday, April 10, 2005
@ 11:58 PM
ok for jeanie and p.s: the outing was good..like i always said, it's nice and comfortable to go out with him...no pressure at all!! drew comics in mos burger..haha how often do i get to do that? oh somemore we watched miss congeniality 2..haha...what a funny show..both of us laughed a lot..i especially loved the part when the partner adjusted hart's fake boobs!! hahaha...then we walked about.. literally walked about... hey my so-called *date*, you are a good friend to go out with!! i kept complaining about the crowd. saturdays. my goodness..i had to go to 3 toilets before i could get my chance. sOOooo many ppl. yikes. but the babies i saw!! over 10 of them!! so cute!!!! i love babies........... =)
oh jeanie! congrats for the singing competition~ you are joining the japanese karaoke with me next year k!! =P
gotta study for j-lang oral..quite scared..our last tb1 class, saw how okada sensei sorta gave up on her when she's trying to answer...=S haiz. oh! mabbe he's still going to be present during our oral!! (:
talking to yixian and ryan now on msn...haha one is my all time buddy! one is my good friend cum lunch kaki in nus!
oh ppl!! i have cut my hair!!! yesterday~*even shorter than the last time~ but i like.. hee.. cooler~* will post a picture up later! applause for michelle!!! it's always like this..i don't know what i want and every time she will give me what i actually wanted...heard her colleague talking to her about styling the hair for 5566 and mayday.. *woah* there was something like "wu yue tian zhi zuo si ge, na ge ah xin mei you.." then they carried on to say anotehr colleague was in charge of the 5566's 4 members..haha wonder if you all can get it... but *REDs* is very zai...
i called the nkf donation line just now. when zhou hua jian was singing..quite touched by him..participating so actively...i have no urge to call for any of singaporean own artistes at all. they are trying to kill themselves in a charity show? ha..yeah can't be bothered. but the quan yi feng was ok..at least she did not show the panting and crying face ...can't stand those...
oh another issue...sad one. why did japan had to do that...that was a terrible mistake...although i am so engrossed and immersed in japanese culture, i know what happened in ww2 cannot be forgiven.. japan should have anticipated this big reaction from the chinese countries...why do that??? hope singapore has no kind of revolt or riot...if not i will be worried for my teachers.. =X oh singaporeans in general are still considered well-behaved and very nice ppl la...phew. haha..
saw 8days! wong li-lin's daughter sage is so adorable!!! love her!! daddy's handsome...mommy's beautiful....she is so beautiful too~* women...i think they look very beautiful when pregnant....they really have the glow.... haha all the babies and mommy.. yeah i wanna have a nice family...and guess what kind of car i would like to have. just the kind i always call "family car" haha..big and comfy and tall? hee....my dream...is to be a housewife!! haha so useless right? ok lah, a part-time job holder? cannot forget the tea sessions with jeanie too..haha okok i am dreaming again...
minasan~ ja, mata suiyoubi!
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
@ 10:32 PM
today!! dear mr. ryan got his grandpa's car and drove me and josh to buona vista for *famous teochew boneless duck rice* hahah...very yummy.. ryan's treat...oh we didn't ask for it...he got his pay..haha..thank you!!!!!!! what a good friend..haha.. (talking to him on msn now. he say must quote this: "no worries") jeanie dear is not in school on tuesday.. missed the food. but her korean guy will bring her all ard s'pore to eat good food la! =P we have a korean friend....how amazing is that...! =)
oh i must say this. ryan's driving skills arh. he nvr do it on purpose also abit similar to andrew's driving stunts!! haha...is that good or bad?? and that pile of bird shit on the window...haha...our dear friend gotta wash car for grandpa~
oh i wore my ring to school today..the one i bought in j2..it came off!! too loose...bought one size bigger by mistake..and it came off after school!! found it missing when i was already on the bus..=(
my ch2223. gone case. lecturer said in tutorial that the exam would be a "knowledge-based" one...haha claudia said "oh dear...." when i told her...yeah. same response i had when i heard it... =S
tomorrow is wednesday!! my last j-lang *tb1* class.....so fast....i saw my oral planning next wednesday. i am pairing up with lifang san.. hmm... the teacher taking us may not be okada sensei..that means, tmr can be said to be our last lesson with him!! feel a bit sad leh.. *nihongo no sensei de, okada sensei ga ichiban suki desu..* though his lessons are a bit stressful...but it's the one with the most laughter! i will continue to take j-lang modules...one each sem.. i hope i can make it.. =)
regarding today's ta10 class...i replied "kare ga hoshii desu" (i want a boyfriend) when taniguchi sensei asked if i want one. hahaha...not exactly true la...i don't see it as a want now. but it will be good to have one isn't it? haha...at least there's someone to accompany you out and talk with you... sleepyhead~ christine-san to kekkon shimasuka??? =P brandon and you are really nice to be made fun of in class..
ok time for j-lang revision...nihongo o benkyoushimasu!! sorekara. nemasu!!
Monday, April 04, 2005
@ 8:05 PM
it's amazing what japanese showbiz ppl can do..!! their creations..haha.. it's a choir with all the boys having the same face..!! and look at this. this boi. who does he look like??
@ 8:02 PM
hahahaha...
@ 7:24 PM
she has this kind of wonderful thinking...told her i can't talk on the phone...(my mood can be easily detected in my msges..no more the usual !! marks.. ) and immediately she thought of sore throat..hahaha.. but she still called and talked.. asked her how i am as a person or a friend...she said ok.. cos if i am not *ok* she wouldn't be friends with me..haha..thanks! was sobbing when i talked to her initially...at the end we were crapping again..
the transformation into a tap has exhausted me...so i took a long nap..i am ok le!! =) i am not pms-ing k...it's just feeling down...sometimes we do feel down suddenly right? wondering what kind of person are we...are we good enough or are we bad and need some changes... guess i thought about it today!!
jeanie and i are fine fine fine...hahaha..this whole matter didn't affect us at all. jeanie, i said i don't wanna keep bickering with p.s in the future but she don't allow...she said we have a contract...oh no...hahah...jeanie help me to get out of her clutches k!! =P
takuya's on tv now!!! hahahah.....keep taking taxis and rushing about!! ppl!! watch out for him~* it's his first appearance on tv again after 3 years!! =) bro-in law suddenly asked if i am attached the other day...hmmm when we reach 20, everyone starts asking that..."mei you la.." is always my reply..haha...then he asked if i still idolize takuya or smth like that..of course man!! haha..he said "20 yrs old le still like that..haha.." i will like him...this is a fact that won't change for at least the next 5 years!! =)
@ 2:12 PM
jeanie ah jeanie...i felt weird to call you..haha..and like you said, just forget it. rem: don't use the blog again if i directly cause you to feel any hurt. it's better to talk over the phone. tell me where i went wrong...it will be a once-and for-all kinda solution. having said that, that shall be our policy~* you tell me what not to say, and i will bear that in mind..wanted to sms you just now...but i didn't know how.. i am not angry or anything...i am not fit to anyway.. i am just upset with myself... p/s: hey my friends, you don't have to like takuya to appease me~yeap..
guys know what, this is an emergency...but i just have to deal it on my own...violet has entered a sudden phase of depression...what caused it? i don't even know it myself!! i just hope it will end by the end of today. terribly down....sHhhHhhh everyone........................nothing's in my head.................
Sunday, April 03, 2005
@ 11:23 PM
how to describe my feelings now? that matter is over..so i m not talking about that of course...pope john paul ii has left us.. i read the papers this morning..(it was the delivered kind, so it was last night's in fact) and i saw his face...very ci xiang... although all reports said he is unable to stay for long, i still hope he won't leave. and in the afternoon i saw news on msn. the heading was he's gone..i was like huh??? yeah he left the world at 3 am + s'pore time... so he was actually gone when i said i hope he won't go so soon.....
reached grandma's hse early in the morning..ok not so early la..ard 10.30am. but it's been so long since i last reached there so early..all of them offered the joss sticks already..so i just went to pay respects to grandpa when i reached.. went to the kitchen..saw grandma squatting down beside uncle and watching him chop the chicken meat...knowing she can't get up on her own later, i stood behind her, waiting to help her when they are done...haha mabbe uncle thought i was waiting for food, he handed me a drumstick!!! hahaha...very funny that scene..i immediately thought of the past.... guess up till 9 yrs old i was still like this.. always waiting beside uncle and grandma (3 of us squat together.) when they chop the meat. oh, erm when i was that small, i really was waiting for the food k!! haha..and uncle would always give me a drumstick...big big one!! secretly...haha..10 yrs plus already!! and this kinda thing happened again today!! very memorable...and yeah i helped grandma up...and my cousins and aunties saw my drumstick and were envious?? hahah.. spent the whole day there..the little cousins all saying sian sian sian...but i felt ok..cos i brought my work to do...sometimes it's just good to spend more time with your family...i will buy food for grandma when i get my pay...~* mr. bean's nice cakes...ah ma eats the *dou sha* and cheese ones.. =) very long nvr give her money also...
i always reply "i went to grandma's hse" in japanese whenever taniguchi sensei asks me where did i go on sunday.. haha.. very coincidental... but everytime she asks, i really went to grandma hse 2 days ago... sleepyhead san..this is to show i nvr bluff..haha..
and my dear friend, yeap i will pray for your mum...no religion but i will pray in my heart & mind..hope she gets well soon..don't be too upset..you cheered me up at my lowest last year...i hope to do the same to ya.. i get worried to see your smses like that...it's not very you...and i get worried... she will be fine.. =) if you ever see this la, i will be here for you!!!!! like i said, you take care too....
Saturday, April 02, 2005
@ 7:38 PM
another depressing incident though. when i walked back home just now, a 50 yr-old uncle walked past me and as he passed by he walked closer to my side. *yucks* he *zoot* me when i walked past him finally!!! *yuckkksssss* i was good not to point my middle finger at him ok...(i have nvr done that in my whole life at someone) because he kept doing that even after i walk 6, 7 metres away already!! my face was as black as can be. and this group of indians walked to my direction too. guess they heard the stupid sound the uncle was making. so they knew why my face was so black too~*
the guy in the *huo xia qu*..haha..very cute..our nus senior..."xiao4 cao3!!" his chinese very funny when he has to speak very fast... i just earned $60+ today..spent 1/4 of the day giving tuition..the only thing to be happy about today. tomorrow will be going to grandma's house...be a good girl...and to pay respects to my grandfather..it's the qingming festival again...the first year to get involve..somehow..
yikes. =( thanks yy for your ice cream...ha..
@ 7:12 PM
your sms last night. i saw it this aft. cos i had tuition in the morning as well.. haha you explained it to me so i thought it was ok le. but you told me to read your blog and i think it's not ok again already..why so? because quite a big part of the paragraph was about me.. hmm..i can't copy exactly la. haha.. you were upset yesterday ...with me... can elaborate or not? i sounded aggressive when i said you could have bought present for your dear another day instead of yesterday? i thought i talked properly...and seriously..the way you spoke yesterday shocked me a little..haha..like i said, the shopping thing a bit cannot understand. haha and yeah. like yy said, maybe we different mindsets la..what i felt was like why my friend can't do something on her own..not the independence kinda thing. but in the sense that buy things on own on normal day..yeah that's what i mean. and the aggressiveness..i really din feel it..cos' i know when i am agressive......i...erm..just know it..haha..! =P andrew. u are a robot like i said. i meant your mind v power la.. can see through ppl's minds and all. greatest of all is you got lobangs from everywhere. i dunno why i chose robot to represent "shen tong guang da" also.. hahaha..
jeanie, as long as you are happy la. mabbe we talked too much about your relationship thing and that *poked you* and evolved your pms-ness. so you got defensive in your blog.. sorry if i did irritate you yesterday.... yy said i looked down...i only felt bad in the chinese lecture. i just felt tired..rest of the day i was tired and not upset. so wasn't the high me on fridays ytd. not high doesn't mean bad mood all the time..~*
this is an edited part k. mabbe you thought over it and said it's ok le. that's why i got the smses this afternoon, since that was written last night. just tell me what are the things that you don't wanna hear of. i will =X in future...